October was the month that everything broke.
Too many things to fix.
Not enough money to buy anything, really.
I spent my days staring at my popcorn ceiling
Picking at callouses
Drinking nothing but water
Eating nothing but time
Clenching my stomach
Trying to ignore the shit all over the floor,
trying to dream my way, wish my way to toleration.
We bought a new toaster, a new hairdryer.
We fixed the car and the washer.
We managed to afford some groceries.
But the gray water still won't drain out of the goddamned tub.
And there's three more days left of October